amaya -- looks like the real thing

first off, i just want to say, that yes, mang nestor is a scammer. absolutely nothing he said came true, or was even remotely accurate.

amaya, well. we'll have to see. found her in galleria, while killing one hour before watching a movie with javi.

first, she makes this disclaimer that a tarot reading is not fortune telling. she doesn't do fortune telling. what she does, is to read your energy. because ultimately, it is the human will which must prevail. sure. but i have to give it to her, she communicates well. not with some form of broken english which distracts you.

anyway, she starts off with generic crap. but once she got the hang of it... she was pretty close.


1. its trial and error for me now. right..

2. travel (why do they always assume that travel in the future is a) exciting for; b) as if its a remote possibility. argh.)

3. i have a happy supportive family. at first, i thought this referred to my own nuclear family. in hindsight, i think it referred to my pasig family. mom, dad, bro, sis. that family. my nuclear family, well, for one, its busted.

4. i have a lot of energy. "continuous" energy, she says. energetic. (energizer bunny perhaps?)

5. My life is focused on a man right now. there is a love triagle. this man, is one i'm not married to, but am romatically involved with. hmm....but i have worries. so i am trying to leave.

6. i am trying to leave a place or a relationship (maybe both?)

7. in the next few months, i will lead a chaotic life because of this relationship.

8. there will be a compromise, some litigation (duh, i'm a lawyer.)

9. javi: is very smart. he will go abroad (there it is again) he has an ace of swords. he is energetic, his options are open. he can have anything he dreams of (uhuh). he may marry young. there is a possiblity he will go abroad. maybe in 4 years. ????

10. martin: generous, compassionate, very close to mom. i am the focus of his life now. intelligent. compassionate, sigurista. nag-iipon. frugal. control freak. wants order and control. lanner. smart.

11. jay: focused on family. will never leave marriage. conservative. family is foundation. i am focus of his plans. soon he will reach his turning point. he will change. become more spiritual. he is now tense. he is carrying burdens that are not his. he doesn't know how to delegate.

12. SD : he carries a lot of guilt. he's mejo mayabang. he is constantly in the middle of pressure. he will eventually be separated. he already has trouble in the marriage. i am aggravating this trouble. i am part of the cause.

13. who do i choose? i should leave both. i must leave jay, and leave sd. fix myself up, then go back to sd, if i want. leaving both is positive for me. even sd limits my life choices. must fix myself before continuing with him.

14. work: in the order of preference: psalm, ogcc, ACA, ERC. all are actually positive. except erc, where it may remain a possiblity. is a wait and see for now, and may not push through.

15. macslaw: will succeed. but with all business ventures, need to be cautious

16. boys will adjust to the break up and to SD as the "new father figure." but there will always be the issue of guilt. the question of whether they were the cause of the break up. :(

17. do "sila" know? no. not now. not yet. but they have an idea that SD isn't with them. but they have 2 other suspects. hmmm.... i am not among the 2.

will they find out? eventually. but not in a long long long long time.

there is clearly litigation. annullment. maybe for me, maybe for SD, maybe for both.

it looks like he will want to keep us going. there is a possibility of permanence. yes, it will be permanent, but not formalized. it will be a very sad relationship for me.

there is already distance between them. like he's staying with her for practical reasons. he will never leave her. but at some point, the relationship will become platonic.

he cannot leave her, but he cannot leave me.


aha...